Still plateauing.
Current Weight: 273 (no loss, no gain)
Current Body Fat%: 28.1% (slight gain, but nothing to get crazy over)
Just gotta make it through the holidays without gaining.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
40
Well, I'm 40 today, but I'm alive!
I can honestly say that I feel better today at 40 than I did 10 years ago when I turned 30. I am in better shape, and I feel more energized.
40 is just a number and not a state of mind. My mind is sharp, and I feel alive. I don't think I've ever had a birthday where I started the morning in the gym. I was looking down at my legs in the shower this morning, and thought - dang, there's some definition I haven't seen in quite some time.
I feel loved today. I'm grateful for my wife, my kids, my parents, my sisters and brother, and their families. It's easy to be a success when you have a great support system. I count my blessings for having good health, and the ability to get myself on the road to being healthier. I have no major health problems, and my body works like it should. Yes, I still have more weight that I want to lose, and my body is not where I want it to be, but I'm still committed. I didn't make my goal of being under 250 by my birthday. Oh freaking well. If somebody had told me last year at this time that I would be at 273 on my birthday this year, I would have thought it was possible, but would have thought they were nuts. I was very depressed a year ago about my weight. I had given up, and was starting to get into the mindset of settling for the fact that I would be heavy for the rest of my life. What would weighing 500 lbs feel like, I thought? What is diabetes going to be like? Does taking insulin every day suck? So, yes, I have to give mad props to my sister for pushing me in the right direction. I don't know why it all came together this year, it just did, and I'm grateful. I'm scared as hell to ever put this weight back on again. The thought of losing it all again just turns my stomach. I want to focus on being the best I can be, and as healthy as possible. I know I won't be perfect. I know that I will still eat donuts. But I can't go back to where I was before. I'm still working on my mindset with food. Working on eating to fuel my body, not to calm my emotions. This is a process, not a sprint. The new year is coming, and I'm going to re-tool some of my health and fitness goals for the coming year.
Thank you to all who read, and comment, and the many more that don't even know this blog exists, they just know me. I appreciate the love, the support, the kind words, the praise and encouragement. It has made a great difference and helped me on this journey.
Thank You!
I can honestly say that I feel better today at 40 than I did 10 years ago when I turned 30. I am in better shape, and I feel more energized.
40 is just a number and not a state of mind. My mind is sharp, and I feel alive. I don't think I've ever had a birthday where I started the morning in the gym. I was looking down at my legs in the shower this morning, and thought - dang, there's some definition I haven't seen in quite some time.
I feel loved today. I'm grateful for my wife, my kids, my parents, my sisters and brother, and their families. It's easy to be a success when you have a great support system. I count my blessings for having good health, and the ability to get myself on the road to being healthier. I have no major health problems, and my body works like it should. Yes, I still have more weight that I want to lose, and my body is not where I want it to be, but I'm still committed. I didn't make my goal of being under 250 by my birthday. Oh freaking well. If somebody had told me last year at this time that I would be at 273 on my birthday this year, I would have thought it was possible, but would have thought they were nuts. I was very depressed a year ago about my weight. I had given up, and was starting to get into the mindset of settling for the fact that I would be heavy for the rest of my life. What would weighing 500 lbs feel like, I thought? What is diabetes going to be like? Does taking insulin every day suck? So, yes, I have to give mad props to my sister for pushing me in the right direction. I don't know why it all came together this year, it just did, and I'm grateful. I'm scared as hell to ever put this weight back on again. The thought of losing it all again just turns my stomach. I want to focus on being the best I can be, and as healthy as possible. I know I won't be perfect. I know that I will still eat donuts. But I can't go back to where I was before. I'm still working on my mindset with food. Working on eating to fuel my body, not to calm my emotions. This is a process, not a sprint. The new year is coming, and I'm going to re-tool some of my health and fitness goals for the coming year.
Thank you to all who read, and comment, and the many more that don't even know this blog exists, they just know me. I appreciate the love, the support, the kind words, the praise and encouragement. It has made a great difference and helped me on this journey.
Thank You!
Friday, December 5, 2008
This is turning into a monthly report
Sheesh, where did November go? It actually didn't go all that fast, but I just didn't seem to get any reporting done, or any blogging. Sorry. Work was pretty busy though. I did however, continue to go to the gym and workout. Eating right, well that's another story.
The long and the short of it is that the plateau continues. Damnit! I guess my body really likes the 270 number.
So here are my numbers for November, and up to today:
Date Weight Body Fat%
11/7/08 268 27.5
11/14/08 272 27.6
11/21/08 269.5 28.0
11/28/08 271 28.0
12/05/08 273 27.9
I feel like the proverbial rubber ball, bouncing around so much.
The analysis:
~Eating~
My eating has been way off lately. Fast food is finding it's way back into my life these days. I get busy, and running through the drive-through is easier than going to a grocery store. And then when I go to the Wendy's or the McD's, I'm not getting the salad, I'm getting the cheeseburger, etc. Bad, bad, bad! Then, I know why I had 'No Donut October', it cuz I love the damn things. I've had way too many of those in the last month. Confession time: The other night I needed something from the store, and when I went into the store(Dick's for those that know it), the bakery was calling to me and I wanted something sweet. I opted for a container of chocolate cake donut holes. I polished off half the box that night, and the rest the next day. Ugh!! Not what I should be doing. 6 months ago I would have gone in there and got what I needed and maybe I would have bought an apple. I guess I need to re-examine my motivation, and see what I can do to get my head screwed back on straight again.
~Working Out~
Its been up and down too. Fall is always busy for me, so I was worried that my workouts would suffer. I think I've still been averaging 3-4 workouts/week, but they are not the most intense things in the world. Since my stamina and overall fitness are better these days, the same workouts are not pushing me as hard or as long as I should to keep seeing results. I know that I need up the intensity and get back to doing more weights AND do cardio on top of it. Time is the killer though. Often, due to time constraints, I cut my workouts short, and so I only get 30 min in, when I should be getting an hour. Gotta make the time. I am worth it!
On the bright side, I did play in an indoor soccer game last Saturday. So, check that one off the list.
Ok, it was against my daughter's team (Dad's vs daughters), but still I was out there ripping it up! I was making runs up and down the sidelines, and making cuts and moves, and yes, even scoring 2 goals. It felt awesome. Nothing like the game last January, when I could barely go 5 minutes and it was killing me. Holy crap it was fun! Now, I did pay the price. Just because you lose weight and exercise does not mean all of your muscles are fit and ready to go. My glutes (butt muscles) have been killing me all week. I guess the running was OK, but the cutting and other moves were outside my usual workout norm.
I was a litte bummed today cuz I realized that I've been in size 42 jeans for like 3 months now. I had been going through sizes about every 2 months up till now. 40 is nowhere in sight at the moment, and if I'm not careful, 44 may be back in my life again.
So, next week is my 40th birthday. My goal was to be under 250 by then, but that's not going to happen. Hell, I'll be happy at this point to be under 270. Its all good though. This is a process, and I'm working through it.
The long and the short of it is that the plateau continues. Damnit! I guess my body really likes the 270 number.
So here are my numbers for November, and up to today:
Date Weight Body Fat%
11/7/08 268 27.5
11/14/08 272 27.6
11/21/08 269.5 28.0
11/28/08 271 28.0
12/05/08 273 27.9
I feel like the proverbial rubber ball, bouncing around so much.
The analysis:
~Eating~
My eating has been way off lately. Fast food is finding it's way back into my life these days. I get busy, and running through the drive-through is easier than going to a grocery store. And then when I go to the Wendy's or the McD's, I'm not getting the salad, I'm getting the cheeseburger, etc. Bad, bad, bad! Then, I know why I had 'No Donut October', it cuz I love the damn things. I've had way too many of those in the last month. Confession time: The other night I needed something from the store, and when I went into the store(Dick's for those that know it), the bakery was calling to me and I wanted something sweet. I opted for a container of chocolate cake donut holes. I polished off half the box that night, and the rest the next day. Ugh!! Not what I should be doing. 6 months ago I would have gone in there and got what I needed and maybe I would have bought an apple. I guess I need to re-examine my motivation, and see what I can do to get my head screwed back on straight again.
~Working Out~
Its been up and down too. Fall is always busy for me, so I was worried that my workouts would suffer. I think I've still been averaging 3-4 workouts/week, but they are not the most intense things in the world. Since my stamina and overall fitness are better these days, the same workouts are not pushing me as hard or as long as I should to keep seeing results. I know that I need up the intensity and get back to doing more weights AND do cardio on top of it. Time is the killer though. Often, due to time constraints, I cut my workouts short, and so I only get 30 min in, when I should be getting an hour. Gotta make the time. I am worth it!
On the bright side, I did play in an indoor soccer game last Saturday. So, check that one off the list.
Ok, it was against my daughter's team (Dad's vs daughters), but still I was out there ripping it up! I was making runs up and down the sidelines, and making cuts and moves, and yes, even scoring 2 goals. It felt awesome. Nothing like the game last January, when I could barely go 5 minutes and it was killing me. Holy crap it was fun! Now, I did pay the price. Just because you lose weight and exercise does not mean all of your muscles are fit and ready to go. My glutes (butt muscles) have been killing me all week. I guess the running was OK, but the cutting and other moves were outside my usual workout norm.
I was a litte bummed today cuz I realized that I've been in size 42 jeans for like 3 months now. I had been going through sizes about every 2 months up till now. 40 is nowhere in sight at the moment, and if I'm not careful, 44 may be back in my life again.
So, next week is my 40th birthday. My goal was to be under 250 by then, but that's not going to happen. Hell, I'll be happy at this point to be under 270. Its all good though. This is a process, and I'm working through it.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Running
So, my workout this morning was running on the treadmill at the gym.
Why do I run????
The psychology of my running is something I think about. What is my motivation?
If you are not having your life threatened in some way, why the hell run??? Yet, I think a lot of it has to do with genetics and physical makeup. My son, for example, has about 2% body fat, is constantly wired, and can go from 0-60 in about 2 seconds, and doesn't think twice about it. I may start calling him Dash! Me, being on the heavy side most of my life, have typically hated running. On my mission, my companion would want to go running in the mornings, I would say," you run, I'll ride my bike along side".
I think last year sometime, I extolled my new philosophy that skinny people are runners, and I wanted to be a skinny people, therefore running must be somehow embraced. I've been trying to do that. Lately, I've been trying to get in a minimum of 6 miles per week. 6 miles isn't much, but its what I do right now. 98% of the time I run on the treadmill at the gym, like this morning. I need to change that though, and get outside more. I think I may start to try and run outside more, even though winter is coming. You can run when its cold too - you just have to bundle up more. (Note to self - get cold weather training gear).
Anyway, I plan to hit the new Legacy Parkway trail tomorrow morning. Probably just 3-4 miles, we'll see.
Speaking of the psychology of running, I found this article interesting and somewhat inspirational.
http://www.mapmyrun.com/story/713652597451/why_do_i_run
Read and enjoy. I will have to come up with some reasons why I run.
For now, they are:
-I want to be a skinny person, and lose weight.
-To push myself. Harder, faster, longer than the time before.
-To clear my head and think.
etc.....
Why do I run????
The psychology of my running is something I think about. What is my motivation?
If you are not having your life threatened in some way, why the hell run??? Yet, I think a lot of it has to do with genetics and physical makeup. My son, for example, has about 2% body fat, is constantly wired, and can go from 0-60 in about 2 seconds, and doesn't think twice about it. I may start calling him Dash! Me, being on the heavy side most of my life, have typically hated running. On my mission, my companion would want to go running in the mornings, I would say," you run, I'll ride my bike along side".
I think last year sometime, I extolled my new philosophy that skinny people are runners, and I wanted to be a skinny people, therefore running must be somehow embraced. I've been trying to do that. Lately, I've been trying to get in a minimum of 6 miles per week. 6 miles isn't much, but its what I do right now. 98% of the time I run on the treadmill at the gym, like this morning. I need to change that though, and get outside more. I think I may start to try and run outside more, even though winter is coming. You can run when its cold too - you just have to bundle up more. (Note to self - get cold weather training gear).
Anyway, I plan to hit the new Legacy Parkway trail tomorrow morning. Probably just 3-4 miles, we'll see.
Speaking of the psychology of running, I found this article interesting and somewhat inspirational.
http://www.mapmyrun.com/story/713652597451/why_do_i_run
Read and enjoy. I will have to come up with some reasons why I run.
For now, they are:
-I want to be a skinny person, and lose weight.
-To push myself. Harder, faster, longer than the time before.
-To clear my head and think.
etc.....
Plateau
I think that's what I can officially call it. I've been hovering around this 270 mark for a 4-6 weeks now. Normally I would be beating myself up over the fact that I've only dropped 1 pound in the last 2 weeks, but I'm trying to stay positive.
No Donut October went pretty well until this past week. I won't say I completely blew it, but I did indulge in many tasty treats. Including just now having an iced sugar cookie provided here at work for Halloween.
Not all sweets are everything they are cracked up to be. While coming home from Oregon, I was enticed by the aroma of the Cinnabon in the airport. I thought, "what the hell". So, I proceeded to purchase that ooey, gooey, delightful morsel.
Guess what? IT SUCKED! I ate it, but can honestly say that I came away totally unsatisfied. It was really disgusting. That's the last one of those I buy.
Actually, I've had this experience with a lot of things that I've cut out of my diet. Every now and then I think I'll splurge, and partake of some goodie. And more often than not, the food does not live up to the expectations I had in my head.
So, what does this tell me? Food is just that - FOOD. It is fuel. Yes, it can taste good. Yes, it can even make you feel better. But I wonder how much I take food, certain foods especially, and put them "on a pedestal" ( or a cake stand as the case may be), and just think that they are awesome, and more than they really are. The psychology of food and how I relate to it is an interesting dynamic. I'm trying to modify that paradigm. Experiences like the one I had with the Cinnabon are helping to change how I view food.
No Pain, No Gain.
I seriously thought that all the long hours I put in working on my sister's house, and then the plethora of work I've had to do before I left and after I came home, would have compensated for missing workouts. NOPE!
I finally got back in the gym today. It's been 10 days since I last stepped foot in the gym, and thats not good. If I ever expect to reach my fitness goals, I must do better at commiting to be in the gym 1 hour/day 4-5 days a week. It felt good to work out today.
My body fat % dropped. My body fat % is down to a new low. That's good! My lean muscle mass is up and body fat down. I like that. The more muscle mass I have, the better able I am to burn fat.
Goals: Well, hitting 262 by Halloween obviously did not happen. This is the most I've ever missed a goal by. It makes me wonder if I will get to my "under 250 by Dec 11" goal. I'm sure going to work for it. I REALLY WANT TO MAKE IT!!!! I CAN DO IT!
"If you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right"
No Donut October went pretty well until this past week. I won't say I completely blew it, but I did indulge in many tasty treats. Including just now having an iced sugar cookie provided here at work for Halloween.
Not all sweets are everything they are cracked up to be. While coming home from Oregon, I was enticed by the aroma of the Cinnabon in the airport. I thought, "what the hell". So, I proceeded to purchase that ooey, gooey, delightful morsel.
Guess what? IT SUCKED! I ate it, but can honestly say that I came away totally unsatisfied. It was really disgusting. That's the last one of those I buy.
Actually, I've had this experience with a lot of things that I've cut out of my diet. Every now and then I think I'll splurge, and partake of some goodie. And more often than not, the food does not live up to the expectations I had in my head.
So, what does this tell me? Food is just that - FOOD. It is fuel. Yes, it can taste good. Yes, it can even make you feel better. But I wonder how much I take food, certain foods especially, and put them "on a pedestal" ( or a cake stand as the case may be), and just think that they are awesome, and more than they really are. The psychology of food and how I relate to it is an interesting dynamic. I'm trying to modify that paradigm. Experiences like the one I had with the Cinnabon are helping to change how I view food.
No Pain, No Gain.
I seriously thought that all the long hours I put in working on my sister's house, and then the plethora of work I've had to do before I left and after I came home, would have compensated for missing workouts. NOPE!
I finally got back in the gym today. It's been 10 days since I last stepped foot in the gym, and thats not good. If I ever expect to reach my fitness goals, I must do better at commiting to be in the gym 1 hour/day 4-5 days a week. It felt good to work out today.
My body fat % dropped. My body fat % is down to a new low. That's good! My lean muscle mass is up and body fat down. I like that. The more muscle mass I have, the better able I am to burn fat.
Goals: Well, hitting 262 by Halloween obviously did not happen. This is the most I've ever missed a goal by. It makes me wonder if I will get to my "under 250 by Dec 11" goal. I'm sure going to work for it. I REALLY WANT TO MAKE IT!!!! I CAN DO IT!
"If you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right"
Results: Weeks 42 and 43
Week 42: Since I was in Oregon last week, I did not weigh in.
Week 43
I lost 1.0 lbs this week. ~ Any progress is good progress.
Current Weight: 270 lbs
Total Lost: 137 lbs
Current Body Fat: 27.4%
Total Body Fat % Lost: 13.6%
Current Goals:
1) Be at/under 250 by Dec 11, 2008 (20 lbs to go)
Week 43
I lost 1.0 lbs this week. ~ Any progress is good progress.
Current Weight: 270 lbs
Total Lost: 137 lbs
Current Body Fat: 27.4%
Total Body Fat % Lost: 13.6%
Current Goals:
1) Be at/under 250 by Dec 11, 2008 (20 lbs to go)
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Check one off
So, I went to Oregon this weekend to help my sister and bro-in-law with their house. It was the first airplane trip I've made since losing weight.
Have you ever asked for a seat belt extender?
It sucks. It's embarrassing. Probably worse than that is the horrified look on the person's face in the seat next to yours:
"Oh no, that huge guy is about to sit next to me. $#!&!!!!!"
The asking for the seat belt extender only goes on to re-affirm to said co-occupant that you are indeed a fat mass of person, and this will be an uncomfortable flight, and that they will likely have their personal space invaded by you on countless occasions. Very self-conscious situation for those who are 'plus-sized'.
So, I have one of my "List" to check off now: *I want to be comfortable in an airplane seat, and not have to ask for a seatbelt extender.
Ding! Done! No seat belt extender in sight. Loved the flight. (OK, other than spilling my drink on the person next to me- ugh!). I was even able to 'cinch' up the standard issue belt a few inches. I had forgotten that I could be comfortable in an airplane seat. One of the many benefits of a skinnier me. Love little reminders of victory!
Have you ever asked for a seat belt extender?
It sucks. It's embarrassing. Probably worse than that is the horrified look on the person's face in the seat next to yours:
"Oh no, that huge guy is about to sit next to me. $#!&!!!!!"
The asking for the seat belt extender only goes on to re-affirm to said co-occupant that you are indeed a fat mass of person, and this will be an uncomfortable flight, and that they will likely have their personal space invaded by you on countless occasions. Very self-conscious situation for those who are 'plus-sized'.
So, I have one of my "List" to check off now: *I want to be comfortable in an airplane seat, and not have to ask for a seatbelt extender.
Ding! Done! No seat belt extender in sight. Loved the flight. (OK, other than spilling my drink on the person next to me- ugh!). I was even able to 'cinch' up the standard issue belt a few inches. I had forgotten that I could be comfortable in an airplane seat. One of the many benefits of a skinnier me. Love little reminders of victory!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Random
Not that I usually forward e-mails to 10 people so that I will have good luck, or participate in any sort of internet 'games', but my sister put up a 'tag' post on her blog, and so I thought I'd do the same.
I guess the idea of this tag is to post the picture that is found in the 4th folder, 4th file in on your PC. Well, starting from where? Desktop, my documents, huh? I figured I'd start with "My Pictures" and go from there. 4th folder in is called "Cabin", and this is the 4th picture in that folder:
This is a picture of the autumn leaves up at the cabin. It was taken a few years ago, but the scenery up there is gorgeous, especially in the fall.
How in the world does this relate to my fitness?
Well, it reminds me that I need to get outside more and take advantage of the beautiful outdoors, especially before the weather turns really cold. I was going to do a trail run last Saturday, but opted for the more comfortable confines of the gym. I do that too much.
Oh, and those 2 lbs I had gained last week - they decided to wait till Saturday to leave. I was overall down a pound on Saturday at the gym. This is why I don't get too bent about scale numbers.
I guess the idea of this tag is to post the picture that is found in the 4th folder, 4th file in on your PC. Well, starting from where? Desktop, my documents, huh? I figured I'd start with "My Pictures" and go from there. 4th folder in is called "Cabin", and this is the 4th picture in that folder:
This is a picture of the autumn leaves up at the cabin. It was taken a few years ago, but the scenery up there is gorgeous, especially in the fall.
How in the world does this relate to my fitness?
Well, it reminds me that I need to get outside more and take advantage of the beautiful outdoors, especially before the weather turns really cold. I was going to do a trail run last Saturday, but opted for the more comfortable confines of the gym. I do that too much.
Oh, and those 2 lbs I had gained last week - they decided to wait till Saturday to leave. I was overall down a pound on Saturday at the gym. This is why I don't get too bent about scale numbers.
Friday, October 17, 2008
%$^&"()*@# stupid scale! - Week 41
Well, this is it, the week I have been dreading for 41 weeks now. I gained this week. UGGGGH!
I know, I know, its not the end of the world, but still, it sucks. I was really good this week too. I was in the gym 5 times this week since my last weigh in. I worked out hard. I thought I ate relatively well. But sometimes, your body just says "screw you". Oh well, it just ups my determination to keep after my goals.
+2 this week (damnit)
271 current weight
28.1% BF (no change)
(actually, this means that, as part of my 2 pounds, I gained 1.5 lbs of muscle, and only .5 of fat. - so that's good - need to keep the muscle, and lose the fat.)
I know, I know, its not the end of the world, but still, it sucks. I was really good this week too. I was in the gym 5 times this week since my last weigh in. I worked out hard. I thought I ate relatively well. But sometimes, your body just says "screw you". Oh well, it just ups my determination to keep after my goals.
+2 this week (damnit)
271 current weight
28.1% BF (no change)
(actually, this means that, as part of my 2 pounds, I gained 1.5 lbs of muscle, and only .5 of fat. - so that's good - need to keep the muscle, and lose the fat.)
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Motivation - My List
Truth be told, nobody makes any changes in their life unless they are doing it for themselves. You can't change for wife, or kids, or parents or peers or anybody. YOU have to find the desire to change within you and for you.
Change is hard, and we search for motivation wherever and whenever we can find it. Somewhere along the way, somebody told me to make an ongoing list of things that motivate me to lose weight, and to keep that list where I can always see it. So, I did this, and I keep it in my weekly log of weight and stats.
Here is my ongoing list, here is what I want:
Change is hard, and we search for motivation wherever and whenever we can find it. Somewhere along the way, somebody told me to make an ongoing list of things that motivate me to lose weight, and to keep that list where I can always see it. So, I did this, and I keep it in my weekly log of weight and stats.
Here is my ongoing list, here is what I want:
| *I want to be under 250 lbs when I turn 40! (12/11/2008) (this originally said "under 300 by my birthday", but I had to change the goal when I got under 300 back in July) | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
*I want to be able to play in an indoor soccer league
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Monday, October 13, 2008
Is it vanity????
I don't know and I don't care. Today I was at my 'other' office. Right now I work across town from my company's main office. I haven't been back to the 'home' office in about a month, and I had to go there today for a meeting. Knowing this, I purposely wore my new size 42 cargo pants (which make me look slim) and new XL size shirt. Now, these people all saw me only a month ago. Yet, I must have had 10-20 comments today from co-workers about how great I looked.
The one that cracks me up the most is: "I didn't even recognize you. I had to do a double take." My old boss hit me with that one as soon as I came through the front door, and I had 2 others say the same thing. But mostly, it was a lot of "you look great", "good job", "I can't believe how skinny you are". I try to be gracious and just say "thank-you".
I will say that the compliments motivate me. It motivates me to keep going, working out and working hard. Now, I hope that my self esteem is not so based on other people's opinions that when I finally get to my goal weight, that I will feel letdown due to no more comments. I think I feel pretty good about myself and what I've accomplished, so I don't think I'll miss it too much. But for now, I'll enjoy the compliments while they last.
This also has me thinking that I need to be more complimentary to others. We have a lady in our ward who has lost a ton of weight, like myself. I haven't ever talked to her about it, but I really felt on Sunday that I should. I didn't, but I will. You never know the light you bring into someone else's life through a compliment or a kind word. I know what it does for me at least.
The one that cracks me up the most is: "I didn't even recognize you. I had to do a double take." My old boss hit me with that one as soon as I came through the front door, and I had 2 others say the same thing. But mostly, it was a lot of "you look great", "good job", "I can't believe how skinny you are". I try to be gracious and just say "thank-you".
I will say that the compliments motivate me. It motivates me to keep going, working out and working hard. Now, I hope that my self esteem is not so based on other people's opinions that when I finally get to my goal weight, that I will feel letdown due to no more comments. I think I feel pretty good about myself and what I've accomplished, so I don't think I'll miss it too much. But for now, I'll enjoy the compliments while they last.
This also has me thinking that I need to be more complimentary to others. We have a lady in our ward who has lost a ton of weight, like myself. I haven't ever talked to her about it, but I really felt on Sunday that I should. I didn't, but I will. You never know the light you bring into someone else's life through a compliment or a kind word. I know what it does for me at least.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Results: Week 40
I guess I will start doing this again. It was kind of a hassle to post these before, but I've been sending out weekly e-mail reports to my family anyway, so I think I'll pick this back up again.
I lost 1.5 lbs this week. ~ Any progress is good progress.
Current Weight: 269 lbs
Total Lost: 138 lbs
Current Body Fat: 28.1%
Total Body Fat Lost: 12.9%
Current Goals:
1) Be at/under 262 by Oct. 31, 2008 (7 lbs to go)
2) Be at/under 250 by Dec 11, 2008 (19 lbs to go)
I lost 1.5 lbs this week. ~ Any progress is good progress.
Current Weight: 269 lbs
Total Lost: 138 lbs
Current Body Fat: 28.1%
Total Body Fat Lost: 12.9%
Current Goals:
1) Be at/under 262 by Oct. 31, 2008 (7 lbs to go)
2) Be at/under 250 by Dec 11, 2008 (19 lbs to go)
No Donut October
So, one of my biggest weaknesses is donuts. I frigging love them. I may as well be Homer Simpson when it comes to donuts. They are, quite simply, a weakness for me.
In the past month or two I had been noticing myself slipping back into old habits of getting a donut at the convenience store when I fill up with gas, or just as a treat on the way home. My weight has not been coming off as fast as I would like, and I'm sure that this is part of the reason.
Now, I don't believe in total deprivation of any food. You will go nuts if you do this. BUT, I needed to break my addiction to donuts. So, I self-declared October as "No Donut October". Meaning that I will not have a donut, cake, cookie, pretty much any sweet, carbohydrate type bread product till the 31st of October (Halloween).
Its been working too. There have been times when I've reached for a donut in the 7-11, and thought "Nope, its No Donut October". The drawback has been that I may have inadertently increased my intake of straight sugars, like hard candy. I need to knock that off too! But for now, its about breaking the habit of donuts.
BTW, if I don't reach my goal on Halloween (happens to be a Friday and a weigh-in day) of being at or below 262, then No Donut October continues until I do reach my goal.
In the past month or two I had been noticing myself slipping back into old habits of getting a donut at the convenience store when I fill up with gas, or just as a treat on the way home. My weight has not been coming off as fast as I would like, and I'm sure that this is part of the reason.
Now, I don't believe in total deprivation of any food. You will go nuts if you do this. BUT, I needed to break my addiction to donuts. So, I self-declared October as "No Donut October". Meaning that I will not have a donut, cake, cookie, pretty much any sweet, carbohydrate type bread product till the 31st of October (Halloween).
Its been working too. There have been times when I've reached for a donut in the 7-11, and thought "Nope, its No Donut October". The drawback has been that I may have inadertently increased my intake of straight sugars, like hard candy. I need to knock that off too! But for now, its about breaking the habit of donuts.
BTW, if I don't reach my goal on Halloween (happens to be a Friday and a weigh-in day) of being at or below 262, then No Donut October continues until I do reach my goal.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Its hard to keep going
I went to the gym today. It was a biotch to get up this morning. But I did it. My weight yo-yo's like a bear. I hit a new low every Friday, and then by Monday, I seem to gain it all back and then some. Then I spend the rest of the week working hard at the gym, trying to watch what I eat, and thinking "well, this will be the week I slide, and don't lose anything." Yet, somehow, I hit a new low, albeit only 1-2 lbs less than the previous week, and we move on. Just once, I'd like to have a weekend where I go to the gym on Monday and I am no heavier than I was on Friday when I left. That would be nice. Trouble is that weekends are my cheat time with eating. The bigger trouble is that I use the whole weekend to cheat. I really need to stop that.
I was contemplating doing a cleanse this week, just cuz I felt so yucky from the weekend. We'll see. I get bummed because I know I should be doing more weights at the gym, but they are hard. And I know that I should be doing Jillian's workout, but it is HARD. I don't like doing jumping jacks, and skipping rope at the gym - I feel silly doing it there in front of everybody. So, for now, I just keep going.
I was contemplating doing a cleanse this week, just cuz I felt so yucky from the weekend. We'll see. I get bummed because I know I should be doing more weights at the gym, but they are hard. And I know that I should be doing Jillian's workout, but it is HARD. I don't like doing jumping jacks, and skipping rope at the gym - I feel silly doing it there in front of everybody. So, for now, I just keep going.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Two Labor Days: 130 pounds apart
So, like I said, I've been having success. FINALLY! I really need to go into detail on what I've been doing, and what has transpired in the last 8 months. The short story is that I'm down 130 lbs. I feel GREAT!
This past weekend, we were up at our cabin, and went to visit a cave in the mountains. The last time we went was on Labor Day 2006, so its been exactly 2 years since we were last there. Just before we went inside, I had my sister snap a picture of me and my family with my camera. A few minutes later I'm reviewing my pictures on the screen on the back of the camera, and I find the ones of my family. Out of nowhere, I exclaim "Damn, I'm skinny". Both my sisters bust up, and just laugh. Like "Duh!!"
When we got back to the cabin, I pulled up a photo on my laptop from visiting the cave 2 years ago. Its one of the pictures I hate most of myself. I think you'll see why below. I was blown away by the difference. See for yourself.
Labor Day 2006
Labor Day 2008
A picture is worth a 1000 words, right? What a difference! I almost can't believe it myself.
This past weekend, we were up at our cabin, and went to visit a cave in the mountains. The last time we went was on Labor Day 2006, so its been exactly 2 years since we were last there. Just before we went inside, I had my sister snap a picture of me and my family with my camera. A few minutes later I'm reviewing my pictures on the screen on the back of the camera, and I find the ones of my family. Out of nowhere, I exclaim "Damn, I'm skinny". Both my sisters bust up, and just laugh. Like "Duh!!"
When we got back to the cabin, I pulled up a photo on my laptop from visiting the cave 2 years ago. Its one of the pictures I hate most of myself. I think you'll see why below. I was blown away by the difference. See for yourself.
Labor Day 2006
Labor Day 2008
A picture is worth a 1000 words, right? What a difference! I almost can't believe it myself.
It's the thing to do
I started this blog last year as a way to chart my weight loss. Many, many people have done this before. Nothing new. After failing at my attempt last year, I kind of put this aside, and I've only made one post this year so far. Well, now everybody and their dog has a blog, including my two sister's families. While this is not really a blog about my family, I think I will pick it back up again. Just to journal my weight loss and the success I've been having.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Here I go again
Its January - must be time to start a new weight loss effort. My last post in November was pretty depressing. I really didn't see myself getting out of the funk. Luckily, and I won't tell her this, but my sister got on my case (sort of) and it gave me some 'angry' motivation to get going again. I'm trying a place this time called MD Weight Loss clinic. I'm 3 weeks in, and having success, but I'm still not sold on the place. They put me on some meds to help with insulin resistance, and water retention. It freaked me out a little bit, but it seems to be going ok. But I think I'm going to go see my doc, and see what he has to say.
Anyway I'm up and going again. I went right back to the same weight I started out last January. That sucks! But, it was my choice to do that. Now, it is my choice to change. It has got to stick this time!
Numbers:
1/7/08 - Weight: 406, BF% 41
1/11/08 - Weight: 398, BF% 40.4
1/18/08 - Weight: 388.5, BF% 40
1/25/08 - Weight: 383.5, BF% 39.5
Anyway I'm up and going again. I went right back to the same weight I started out last January. That sucks! But, it was my choice to do that. Now, it is my choice to change. It has got to stick this time!
Numbers:
1/7/08 - Weight: 406, BF% 41
1/11/08 - Weight: 398, BF% 40.4
1/18/08 - Weight: 388.5, BF% 40
1/25/08 - Weight: 383.5, BF% 39.5
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